I have every reason in the world to be happy…. Yet here I am in bed at 1am, restless and full of angst. After trying to sleep for a while I simply gave up and decided to just shower…. So at 1am off I went to shower…. I’m in bed ow pondering my life choices feeling like I’m drowning and feeling more alone than I have in a very long time….. I’m in a dark place and I recognize that, but I don’t know how to get out….. The seasonal depression is hitting me hard and I don’t know what to do, aside from accept it with open arms…..